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Confession #3001

To my mother:

Yes, yes I am marrying him, whether you like it or not. I don't CARE that you think my ex-husband was more likeable, if you like him so much, he's now available. Stop making my father miserable and marry him yourself, why don't you? Then you'll find out what it is to live with Mr. Perfect. He's perfectly lazy, and he's only affectionate when he wants laid. But because he kissed YOUR ass, I should have stayed married to him. Well, I'm marrying someone who kisses MY ass this time. I learned my lesson. And you and my grandmother can keep giving him the stink eye because you think he's mean for asking my kids to mind, and you can both whisper about the two of us and you can keep pitying my ex for all I care. Nothing in my life hurt me more than half of my family bailing on me because they didn't approve of my divorce, but I've come out the other side stronger and better for it. You'd better watch it--I realized I deserved better than my ex, and I got it, and I might just decide my kids and I deserve better than you all, too. I'm tired of your opinions clouding my joy and excitement at my impending wedding, so I've basically cut you off. I can finish the job and stop talking to you completely if you'd like. Or you can start being a MOTHER and wish me well and help me plan and be happy for me. It's probably too late to ask you to start doing that at this late date, though. You haven't wanted to be my mother for 28 years, why would you start now?

Love,
Me

Confession #3002

I think I am falling in love with your best friend who has also become one of my best friends. For the moment, it is lust.

I have known him just as long as I have known you. I always swore I wouldn't ever develop feelings for him; I didn't think I could have feelings for him. I didn't know then, but I know now. I was lying to myself. I don't view him as a better provider, more understanding of me, or more sexy. In my mind, you two are equal. Both driven, hard workers; but he always seems more passionate. Maybe its because he's "forbidden fruit", but since our group went out recently, I cannot stop thinking of him. Maybe I have such strong desires towards him because he's open to trying new things, because he will try to learn a new skill for me and I'm not even his wife, let alone girlfriend. He knew how much the lessons would mean to me, and he's excited about them too.

There's the one one factor that differentiates the two of you...he's passionate. I've never cheated on you, ever. So how do I know he is this way? When we shared a dance, I felt a sexiness come over me. I'm sure it overcame him too, at least I hope it did. I wanted him to want me just like I wanted him. It was a feeling I haven't felt through your hands in months, years...I can't stop thinking of how hot dancing with him was...in the middle of everyone, a very crowded club, it felt as if we were the only ones who mattered. I know he felt the same way. Our first dance was mild and to your liking, but after a bit, I locked hands with him and began to guide his hands over my body. It felt incredible. Almost voyeuristic. Mostly, he danced with me from behind. We moved in tandem, bodies grinding together, my hands guiding his hands over my body. I held him tightly, wanting more, pulling him closer to me. That is why I became infuriated with you when you told me I had to leave with you right then. I even thought of him while I pleased myself last night. Its terrible I know, but I want to experience him. To feel his hands gliding over my bare body...I shiver just thinking of it.

I don't know when I developed feelings for him. I don't know why, either. You are a decent lover and an incredible man most of the time, but I feel neglected on some occasions. I'm finding its more often than not I don't "get mine", but you always get yours. This is pushing me towards him more. We started talking more often while you were away earlier this month. We talk every day. He came over each evening to keep me company while you were away. Nothing happened, you know what happens in our home. We've talked about our dancing, and we both agree it was some of the most erotic memories that neither of us will let go. I try to flirt with him and there are times I believe he tries to reciprocate the gesture without being too obvious. I want him to reciprocate. I want him to think about me when we're not together. I want him to want me just as passionately as I want him. My whole being is telling me this is wrong. I know my feelings just need to run their course. I will eventually get over him. I know it...I always do. But until I am done with this lust, I will continue to think of how incredibly sexy he made me feel. We will be dancing together next weekend. We will do it again every time you are away. Both of us will enjoy it to the fullest extent...I hope I can keep myself on my own two feet and not my back.


Confession #3003

You are trying and I really don't want to. After a beautiful 2 1/2 year old daughter and a distance and unhappiness that is just as old. I opened the door because I wanted out, and now you want back in. I think I might be falling in love with someone else. With a kiss that I felt to my very core. Your intentions are honorable and heart felt. Mine are out of obligation to the daughter we wanted together. I don't hate you. I respect you and who you are and who you want us to be. I don't think I can be that with you anymore. It makes me sick to think of hurting you and breaking our family. But how can I be an asset to the family if I am just not happy for the simple fact that I am not in love with you anymore? You are a good dad. You are a good provider. You are loyal. We let this go on too long and I think that it is too late for me. That is my confession.

Confession #3004

I wish you would make me and our marriage a priority.

Stop planning your next poker party. All you do is talk about how big your dick is. And I think you fail to mention to the guys that it doesn't work.

Confession #3005

I know I shouldn't want you as much as I do. You're married, but I want you now more then ever. I want you to know that I'm okay with you wanting to be good and not wanting me now. What hurt the most is when you threw in the "It's not just you, I want to do things with other women to but I have to be good." Even now when I see you, my heart jumps wishing and hoping for something that will never be.


Confession #3006

Dear sweety,

I love you and you're my best friend and we'll be together for always. But you are by far the strangest man I've ever met.

It's been over 3 months since we had sex. With me getting sick, and then you, and then the kids, and then you again with menstrual cycles shoved into the mix I can understand.

But there we were- the kids were in bed and asleep. Your cold is gone. I'm not menstruating. And you pop up to play your game. Ok sure, if I wanted sex I should've pounced on you. But yesterday, and today you gave me all your signs that let me know- get ready, cause later it's you and me.

And then.... nothing. What man in his right mind doesn't have sex with his wife for 3 fucking months then doesn't pounce on her the second he can? Do you not like having sex with me? I've asked you that before and you assure me time and time again that's not the case and then you'll give me the excuses I listed above (sickness, etc). But come on! What man isn't counting the days until we can? What man doesn't want to have a quicky with his wife while the kids are up? I mean they're watching their cartoons! We've been having this same fight. And the day you have sex with me as many times as, or more than you masturbate- I wouldn't feel like shit.

I'd understand an affair- that would be an excuse. But you're not and I know you never will. So my only conclusion would be that you don't want to have sex with me. What the hell is wrong with you?



Confession #3007

We were getting ready to go for a few days away at the cottage. I was fed up with his "me-me" attitude, yes, he is an Aries and has been like that since I met him. Anyway, so we were cleaning up the house and we (meaning I) was also trying to get the kids, 2 years and 2 months to sleep.

When I was released from the hospital 2 months earlier, after having my second son, I was given a prescription for Oxycodone and since I am not a pill taker, he always begs me for mine every weekend until the bottle is gone. Anyway, this night I gave him one and he left it on the fridge.

I got so irritated and finally had it that I took the pill back (lied when he asked me if I took it), lol, "Why would I take it? You must've knocked it on the floor." So, he even moved the fridge to look behind it for the pill. Really? Really is the affects of the pill THAT important??? Come on.

Then I did something naughty (for my standards anyway), he sleeps sometimes in my son's bed when both boys co-sleep with me. Well on this night that's what the plan was. I wanted him to feel uncomfy since he was being such a total ASS that day, so I took a dixie cup full of water and dumped it under the comforter on the sheets of the twin bed.

Kids went to sleep in our bed. I went to sleep too. About 2 hours later, my hubby went to sleep by himself in our eldest son's bed. All I heard for a straight 5 minutes was, "...shit, hell, Jesus, what the hell, shit..." I woke up to that and man that was music to my ears.

I went through both pregnancies with him being such a whiny fucking ass, doing this stupid childish thing made payback feel so right. I fell asleep with a smile on my face. Ahhhhh.

Oh and next day he asked me about the bed being wet. "Jeez, dear, I have no idea. Might've been the cat."

Confession #3008

I love my husband. I do. He treats me well, I know he loves me. But I didn't get much of a chance to experience many other guys. So lately, when I'm having super hot sex with my husband, I'm imagining it's the coworker with whom I have become extremely flirtatious. I hate myself.

Confession #3009

I always feel like I am cheating a little when I give you a blowjob..because I don't really swallow everything. I kind of let about half of it fall back out of my mouth and onto you. You never seem to notice and god knows you have never complained, but I feel like I am cheating you out of a "real" blowjob if I don't swallow everything.

Confession #3010

So soon now he'll be back in my arms! My heart is light and I always have a smile on my face. Just you wait my love, it'll be a time you never forget!

Let me Guess - she dumped you?

There is a political blog I love which does their "Hate Mail" every Saturday. I love the Hate Mail Saturdays as it makes any hate mail I get feel so tame in comparison ( and it is, really). This, however, popped into my inbox a couple days ago, and I felt it was a shame to Not share this unedited, unchanged Love:

IF MEN ARE WOLVES, THEN LADIES STOP BEING LOW SELF-ESTEEMED, LOW STANDARD, FAST AND EASY PICKINGS. SOME OF YOU LOOK LIKE A THREE-LEGGED GAZELLE DIPPED IN MANGO SAUCE, RUNNING ACROSS THE FIELD IN SLOW MOTION. HAVE SOME CLASS AND BECOME A LIONESS! I AIN'T NEVER SEEN NO WOLF GO ANYWHERE NEAR NO LIONESS! Y'ALL NEED TO STOP LETTING LITTLE BOYS LAY UP ON Y'ALL, PLAYING MADDEN AND HOUSE-SITTING ALL DAY. SOME OF YOU WORK SO HARD TO KEEP HIM AT HOME; BUY HIM A CAR IN YOUR NAME, GIVE HIM A CELL PHONE IN YOUR NAME, HE DONT PAY NO BILLS FOR THE HOUSE IN YOUR NAME...DO Y'ALL REALLY BELIEVE THATS WHAT IT TAKES TO KEEP A MAN? SOME OF YOU WOMEN ARE WORST THAN THE OVERBEARING MOTHERS THAT SPOILED HIM AND MADE HIM SORRY IN THE FIRST PLACE! AFTER Y'ALL DONE HAD ENOUGH OF THAT, THEN YOU WANNA PUT ALL MEN IN THE SAME BOAT AND THINK ABOUT CROSSING OVER...IM PRETTY SURE IT WOULD TAKE A WHOLE PACK OF WOLVES TO ATTACK A LIONESS, BUT EVEN IF THAT HAPPENS, THAT LIONESS AIN'T GONNA LOSE HER SEXUALITY! THAS RIGHT, BEING A VICTIM OF THE WRONG KIND OF MEN DOESN'T MAKE IT RIGHT FOR YOU TO JUMP SIDES! LONG STORY SHORT, IF YOU'RE WANDERING AROUND NOT USING YOUR GOD GIVEN INSTINCTS, AIN'T GOT NO PERSONAL GOALS, NO KIND OF CAREER, MAKING BABIES TO PASS THE TIME, AND SITTING AROUND WAITING FOR SOME MAN TO TAKE CARE OF YOU, THEN PREPARE TO BE DEVOURED BY MORE THAN JUST A WOLF! FURTHERMORE, THESE SO CALLED "FEMALE PARTNERS" Y'ALL CALL YOURSELVES TURNING TO, SEE YOU AS AN EASY TARGET AS WELL, I MEAN, WHICH IS WORSE, BEING EATEN ALIVE BY A MALE OR A FEMALE WOLF...IT'S SAD, BUT WHEN U THINK ABOUT IT, U KNOW SOME HEFFAS RIGHT NOW THAT SHOULD BE READING THIS!

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Confession #181

All those times I said I wasn't happy with our marriage? I really meant those. It was NOT a time of the month thing, I have outgrown you. Did I ever think I'd cheat on you? No. Am I ? Yes. And I don't feel guilty because I am finally feeling like a successful, appreciated, caring, talented woman that someone adores. All those nights I'm with you, I'm thinking of him. And if I go away to visit a friend or take a long afternoon shopping, I'm not where you think I am. And you are so spineless I wonder if you found out, if you'd even do anything about it. I have a feeling you'd let it occur right under your nose just so I wouldn't leave you

Confession #182

Why won’t I have sex you? The correct question is why would I ?

Confession #183

When you fall asleep watching TV on the sofa, I run upstairs to the computer and type very quietly with the lights off, so I don't wake you. If you do wake up, I shut off the monitor and quickly hop into bed, so that you think I haven't been on the computer all night.

Confession #184

My worst fear is that one morning you'll wake up and realize that you are too good for me and that I don't deserve you. But I never fear that you will leave me, because you have been nothing but a wonderful husband and father to our child. I know you will never do anything to hurt us. You really are my hero.

Confession #185

If you make a promise, keep it. I keep mine. If you don't have what it takes to be a man of your word, don't run your mouth.

Stop expecting me to feel sorry for you with all of your ailments. They are all self-inflicted. Yes, that's what happens when you don't brush your teeth or have good hygiene. You're not fooling anybody, everyone else knows that too.

I no longer have an interest in getting you off because you show no interest in getting me off.

Yes, you have a job. Get over it. Everyone has to work. Either change careers or stop whining and complaining. Guess what? Everyone you're complaining to just came from work too!

If you don't start to address the projects around the house that need your attention, I will call someone and have it taken care of. I don't care if it IS what you do.

If buying me gifts for the holidays is such a problem, don't do it anymore. I'll take the cash. I can't take another holiday of you waiting until the last minute to shop and coming home with things I never asked for because that's all you could find in the last 10 minutes the store was open.

I know I didn't marry Romeo BUT after nearly 20 years you do have to spring for a getaway at some point. If you choose not to again when our 20th anniversary rolls around, I will plan my own getaway and leave you at home, alone.

Yes, you have a problem gambling when you spend as much time doing that as you do working.

Please try to remember that there are other people around you. They have feelings too. Treat others like you would like to be treated. The world does not revolve around you.

Confession #186

I have never loved you.....I only married you because I was afraid I'd be alone forever. I wish I would have known that being married to you would make me feel more alone than ever...

Confession #187

I read your emails, all of them. Even the ones you don't think I know about

Confession #188

I watch porn occasionally, not because I am sick or twisted or have some sort of fetish. I watch it, because I figure at least the porn stars are getting some...more often than I am. I only dream sex could be that good and lengthy.

Confession #189

The mornings when you let me sleep in while you take care of the child win you more points than just about anything else you could do.

Confession #190

You are a whiny bitch on family trips and when we have company. I miss having a social life that involves you.

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Confessions # 2991

Yet another night in hell. I wish you would understand how much your drinking is killing our marriage, our dreams.. How much lower you set the bar for our children. I wish I could leave you and to never hear from you again. You are a disease that infects everything. I am tired of you "sorry"s, should've, could've or other times about your "justifying" your drinking and your 3am or 4am escapades. While you're out "relaxing" with friends, I am home 24/7 with our 10month old and our 2 year old and it's not easy at all. I rather be single and struggling than with you and surviving.. I hate the fact that you're fat, that you don't take care of yourself, that you do drugs, that you drink, that you suck in bed, that you BREATHE! I feel I lost 12 years of my life wasting my time with you. Yes YOU pay the bills now, YOU are working, well just so you know, my work right now is 10 times harder than yours raising 2 kids BY MYSELF , and let's not forget, when I was working I made twice the money that you bring in now and if it wasn't for me and my direction, we would have never had everything we have today. You wouldn't have vacation house in Europe to bloody brag about to your alcoholic low life white trash friends, you wouldn't have a clue about the world.. you would have been just like all others in your branch- just a simple alcoholic. You would have never traveled the world and seen the things we've seen.. you would have never probably had a passport for God's sake. I should have never married you, I should have never gave you 5 minutes of my life. Damn you! Now I am stuck here, away from my country, from my friends from my family. I gave up everything for YOU!!! And this is what it turns out to be... I hate you!

Confessions # 2992

Know how we have all this junk around the house we don't want anymore? Know how I listed those 2 big bookshelves my mother GAVE us 6 years ago on Craigslist for $100? Know how I lugged them out onto the front porch by myself? Know how I took $50 for them? Know how you just sat on your ass during this process? Know how when I told you I got $50 you got pissed at me and said I got scammed?

Know what? Fuck you. You want crap out of this house, you figure it out.

Of course, if we die in this place in 15 years the authorities will have to dig us out of the massive piles of rubble because you won't do shit to get rid of anything.

Confessions # 2993

You had quite the balls of steel when you announced that you weren't taking part in dinner tonight, so your daughter and I could eat on our own - then turned around and asked me for my debit card so you could order pizza.

Didn't think I would say no, did you?

Confessions # 2994

I live for the day that you will not make me feel stupid when doing something to help you. Keep in mind that I do not live with you yet so be happy when I help with your dishes, dinner, etc. and don't criticize me while doing it. Your way is not always better and you are by no means perfect. Honestly I do not know how I can ever live with you--your OCD is rediculous. Also the fact that our kids do not like each other and you ignore my son is a serious issue. You've lost the passion in your eyes for me and if it doesn't come back, I'm gone. I'm about to walk away, and when I do you will wish that you tried a little harder to keep me!


Confessions # 2995

I know we have agreed to alternate the days we clean out the litter box but while you're at work I just deodorize it and add a little more litter so really you are the only one to clean the litter box.


Confessions # 2996

You said you would always be there for me. You said you loved me. Is love bringing another woman and her child into our home and carrying on a relationship with her? I put up with it for 4 years. Don't ask me why I did it for so long. I think I figured she would get sick of you and leave. But she didn't. I finally got the courage to leave you! I am not in your life anymore, so you can't control me, but yet you try. It is NONE of your business if I have money, nor what I spend it on. I don't care if you can't buy groceries, that is NOT my problem. You think buying the kids some school supplies makes it all better. For the $100 you spent, I spent an additional $390 on the rest of their school supplies, their shoes, their clothes. Who is paying for their bussing and their school fees? Not you. That's for sure. Yet you think you can make me feel bad that you have no money. Too bad. You made your bed, you can sleep in it.

I am trying to be nice for the sake of the kids, but you make it hard because you still try and control me. Try and control what I write, what I tell others, what I spend my money on. Keep it up, and things aren't going to be so nice.

I am much happier now that I am free. Thank you for letting me realize that you didn't make me happy.


Confessions # 2997

After almost 20 years, you have finally learned how to make a good cup of coffee. Thank You!

Confessions # 2998

I know that you are the best thing that has happened to me in probably my entire life...but where where you 25 years ago? Why are you so good to me? You are so gentle,so sweet..you know what I have done since my marriage ended...the men that I have used and yet you are still there for me.Why??
Only one problem...you have no sex drive.When we do make love it feels like I am molesting you.Why are you so passive? This is something that I can't do for much longer.I know you love me but you are forcing me to look outside our relationship for sex and it is killing me.I am 45 years old and in my prime dude....I want and crave YOU, please,please feel the same way or I am gone.

Confessions # 2999

I don't like who ever you become when we have houseguests. That guy who appears in front of other people? I HATE that guy. Stop it. Your friends love you for You and I always have loved you for you, so please don't drive us away with that miserable bastard.

Confessions # 3000

Having you call me every day during my vacation to complain about the animals? Suck it the fuck up. Who did you think was cleaning litter and feeding and cleaning? My 51 week a year job gives me Zero sympathy for your 1 week job.

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Confessions # 2981

We've been having really great sex lately. But you know that, eh? ;)

Confessions # 2982

Thanks for letting me take the lead in anal sex this week - I know you were excited and I was too - but allowing me to go at my own pace just made it all the better for me and more likely that you will be treated to that more often!

Confessions # 2983

To my first love, I was an innocent and would have loved you beyond words, but you lost me to ..
Badboy, I never anticipated you in my life I grew up in a good catholic background, which was lost in poverty, but I loved you and fell in love when you said hello, it wasn't all romance far from it but, emotions made you the one I loved, I had your child to my expense and happiness. I soon realised my mistake and rectified it by hard work and isolation... I worked and told you to go, I was devasted, we sort of remained amicable as long as you knew where I was and what I was doing... I met someone else.. older and an adulterer, I had no idea but I never brought him in to my childs life... you moved on and had 2 kids and are happy. I met and lost along the way, I look at you and you know me better than anyone because I had to allow you in my life because of our child, otherwise you would have been a wasted love.. I made so many mistakes. My life isn't great my daughters father has a new girlfriend and 2 children, and my second love has 3 children and believe me with his track record many, many more children..

My confession with absolute shame is that I think about all the men every single day, I know each one affected my life and I try to overcome it daily but know they are cheaters..

Confessions # 2984

my love is deep for you! but yet i do horrible things to you. you may or may not know it but i have cheated on you many times and dont know if i can stop. i have a sickness, i always want more. im searching for an o.g. and when i find it then what.....?


Confessions # 2985

I’m married to a man that treats me well but the sex is blah as in one way and one way only. I have been talking to a friend and he has offered one night of no attachment sex. Do I cross the boundary line of what is right or see if the pasture is greener on the other side.

Confessions # 2986

I'm really glad that you quit smoking as its bad for your health and very stinky. I want you to be around and healthy as long as possible because I love you so very much. But secretly, I wish you would start again because when you don't smoke....you are a complete asshole.

Confessions # 2987

I shave my hair "down there" with my husband's beard trimmer.

He has no idea.

Confessions # 2988

Sometimes I just want to feel important to you. Sometimes I just want you to ask about me. Your job is so stressful. Every day you come home so tired, stressed out, complaining. What about me? What about what I am thinking about? What about what I dream? What I want? How my business is going? It isn't all about you. You say you want to spend more time together. You say we have lost touch. But what do you do to fix that? Do you take an interest in what I am doing? What is going on with me? I just want to feel like I matter to you. And I need your words to tell me that. Not you making the money, taking the kids. I need you to talk to me. Take control and find out about me and what I like, what makes me tick. I love you, you are my best friend. But when all you do is stress about everything, even around here and make me feel like the hired help, I don't want to talk to you, let alone make love to you. When you ease up and relax, when you are cheerful, I want you so much more. I feel so down about myself. I need a hug sometimes. I need a kiss. I just need a friend. I need you back. You aren't the same anymore. You aren't healthy. You worry, you fret, you stress. Don't stress away our days together. Look at me. I am your best friend. You are mine. Relax, stop picking, stop worrying. Come back to me. I love you. And I miss you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. But I can't spend the rest of my life living like this.

Confessions # 2989

I am not a wife, nor have I ever wanted to be someone's piece of land to own. Yet, I want to be your wife. Your face is so beautiful that I can only imagine what our children might look like someday. your thoughts are sensitive, and kind, and I know you would make an amazing Father and Husband. I wish you didnt drink so much, because I refuse to live as your wife, and mother of your children if you continue to abuse your body.


Confessions # 2990

I started talking to this guy through a website in April. He lives over 2,000 miles away from me. Well, things between us have been great. He has always been a gentleman with me. Only once did we argue and he was right. It was over the fact that my live in BF didn’t deserve me. The whole time we have been talking we discussed him coming to my city to visit. Well, I got rid of my live in BF because I really really like this guy. At the beginning of this month I mailed him my digital camera so he could take some pictures of himself, his life, and his city. He loved the idea and took pictures of his home and sent the camera back to me. I took photos for him and sent them through email. I had asked him what he would do if I decided to be spontaneous and showed up at his door. He said he would start kissing me. He told me where most the hotels r located. He even told me I should try and come within the next 2-3 weeks. I tell him the dates I have decided on. No reply since Monday. Mind you back in June he told me some how someone had compromised his email password and his email was becoming difficult to access. So when I asked him on Monday why he didn’t respond he says cause he couldn’t get into his email. Yesterday I went back to the website we met on and sent him a few messages and he didn’t even reply yet read them. Then I get an email stating I violated the terms of use and my profile was deleted. He is the only one I talked with through that profile. So here are my questions…Should I still surprise him? Should I wait it out and hope it is just his email messing up? Or Should I just give up and move on?

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Confession #171

i've kissed 3 men since we've been married. i thought i was falling for two
of them. after realizing that it was only you i wanted, i stopped what i was
doing. you still dont know about it. and i will never tell you. because i
have a feeling you've done the same thing. and i can only hope that you
realized the same thing i realized and stopped what you were doing.

Confession #172

I find you repulsive. If you have a drive to take care of your family, perhaps you would be having more sex, big boy...

Confession #173

Remember when you took me out for our second date to the movies? While the credits were rolling I said, "Thank you", not "I love you" like you thought because you looked surprised and said, "I love you too". So when you tease me by saying, "You told me you loved me first and only after two dates", like I was so desperate and needy, you're just being an ass. I just never told you the truth. And I wasn't in love with you then.

Confession #174

I think about my exes. A LOT.

Confession #175

I hate being your wife. I've given you so many chances to get your act
together. I'm tired of being patient & stupid. I'm still here because you
took away the car keys so I can't make a midnight escape with the baby.
That & you threaten to take the baby away from me & I know you & your family
would do it. I'm stuck. For now.

Confession #176

I would give just about anything if you would (a) plan
something fun for us to do w/o being prompted by me,
and (b) notice when a chore around the house needs to
be done and not wait for me to ask you. You don't
realize that the resentment I feel about these two
issues is severely eroding our relationship.

Confession #177

I rarely let you get up with the baby anymore. It's not worth it. Because the 20 minutes of sleep you lost transfers into 3 hours of crankiness that I just can't tolerate. So I get up myself-after 5 minutes, I'm over it. You should get over it, too. You helped create her, so stop treating her like an inconvenience.

Confession #178

my husband sucks in bed and has made no attempt to try to get better. I am angry about it.

Confession #179

I have porn videos, even though you hate them. Whenever you spend the night at the shore with your buddies, I always get so inwardly excited because I get to watch them, ALONE!

Confession #180

Sometimes I hate you. Mainly because of your refusal to do more than the bare minimum to interact with and entertain our kids. You think you are a good dad and husband because you change a few diapers and occasionally take ONE kid somewhere with you. I am with these kids 14 hours per day while you work. On your days off all you do is sit in front of the computer or playstation, while I run around in circles trying to keep the two-year-old and five-year-old busy. You are always on the prowl for a way to leave the house and go have some beer with your buddy. You are so exhausted you sleep through the kids getting up, but yet you are ready to go for sex. And you wonder why you never get any.

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Confessions # 2971

As I wait for the test results I realize how much I love you. Many of the things I have done have not been in the best interest of our relationship. At least this one can be fixed.

Confessions # 2972
From a male reader:

I randomly stumbled across your website and found it intriguing to say the least. But I have a few comments that I would like to say to many of the woman that have posted.

I've seen a common thread come up again and again and again: mainly woman staying in situations/relationships that are totally bad for them and they know completely that they just aren't happy. Yet they tolerate it anyway. What!? I think there comes a point in every bad situation when enough gets to enough, and to all those woman I'd like to say that:

Life is short. It's not worth it to be miserable year after year. That's not living--it's only surviving. Life was meant to be enjoyed. Grab life by the horns and change your circumstances!

I hope you can add this or some similar message to your blog. I only send this now because it's hard to hear that so many people (woman) are enduring such terrible/unpleasant circumstances when the truth is that they really don't have to.


Confessions # 2973

Pride comes before a fall - oh yes, it does... I've always said - I will NEVER be the other woman, but that's what I have become. Regardless of what happened before I entered the picture - some part of the guilt is mine. I keep telling you to reconsider things and take your time - that is my rational mind talking - when all I want to do is to tell you to get things sorted - so WE can start. I pretend that I don't care about the whispered gossip about us around the workplace - but I am not so unconventional after all - I care - and it hurts... It hurts because I cannot share what I really feel, I cannot let anyone know what you mean to me, even if everyone seems to know. I have so many things running around in circles in my mind... I am in love with someone who is married, who practices a different faith, who is almost twice my age, whose culture and upbringing are totally alien to mine - and I have fallen with my eyes wide open - but the longer it takes you to make yourself available - the more I am afraid I will start resenting you. Completely contrary, aren't I? I ask you to think carefully and take your time - yet, I want you to be free to be with me NOW. But I still love you.

Confessions # 2974

In my eyes, you are the most beautiful man whom I ever saw.
On your computer, you have many pictures of others women.

When I approach you with sexy ideas, you (almost) always say no.
I feel beautiful and enjoy sex before you came into my life...

The worst is that you don't give a shit when I talk of this situation.
It's really painful. That's why, one day, maybe, I will say yes to a another man... a real one.

Confessions # 2975


Your extreme selfishness as well as your financial insecurity which makes you spent almost 2 hours a day trading and buying stocks(even though your income is now over half a million...)and still act greedy at home (when the expenses are not related to your needs)makes me puke. Above all, my family, parents brother and some friends have started resenting us because of your self centered behavior (and conversations)and the tension caused by it between us. If only you could see how your attitude prevents any woman (including me) to fall in love with you as a person instead of your status and your money !!!
But of course you are too proud and full of vanity to see that. All you crave for is admiration and compliments. What i look for in a man is the opposite of who you are : generous, modest, altruist etc..) Of course, you waited for a fist child to be born to show your true self.
My kids are only 5 and 3. I just cannot stand the idea of seeing them a week out of two....One day, when they're older, I should be able to live with this idea.


Confessions # 2976

I committed adultery because I didnt feel like you paid enough attention to me.
I wanted to feel wanted and desired. I wanted someone to have mind blowing sex with.

The irony is that the person who I committed adultery with, and all the other men I met along the way, didnt treat me as good as you do. They made me realize that you treat me like a princess. I am the luckiest girl in the world.

And the sex wasnt that great, either.

I feel like a piece of crap.

Confessions # 2977

I will not stay with you if you can't even be real with me and talk about what freaked you out after the play. I won't put up with your silent treatment because I get to travel great places for work. And I won't be patient anymore waiting for the sex to return. You quit marriage counseling because it is too hard to be real. I quit you. Marriage ain't for sissies. Grow the fuck up.

Confessions # 2978

I am a man, and imagined some of those confessions were from my wife. I know she is pretty happy, but could be much more so if I'd take my head out of my ass sometimes.
I think men act the way they do sometimes because of fear. If they / we could learn to live more fearlessly, and be ourselves, and be open to potentially being hurt, but being true to themselves. Men are physically strong, but emotionally and mentally weak (as a general statement).

Women are scared too, but for other reasons. Wish everyone could just be more open with their lovers, would be a happier world.

Thank you for your confession website, and I am now a big fan. If you post any part of my email, please remove any contact information, and ladies, please be kind.

Confessions # 2979

I don't mind us sleeping in separate beds. I think we both sleep better.


Confessions # 2980

We have been married for almost ten years and the spark we had when we first married is almost non-existent now. You are a good and loving man but your selfishness, hypocrisy, laziness and short temper (not that you would ever think of hitting me) is really wearing on me. All of this coupled with our non-existent sex life (once or twice a month for 10 minutes does not constitute a sex life) has me thinking about having an affair. I've never cheated on any man in my life but I am thinking of cheating on you.

I am tired of you ignoring me physically and then once or twice a month trying to wake me up at 2:00am for sex. I'm half asleep and have to get up in a few hours, why can't you come to bed at a reasonable hour? You're not doing anything important, just surfing the net or working on pet projects that could easily wait until the morning. I would gladly rearrange my schedule once or twice a week if I thought we were going to actually have sex, instead you get distracted and forget. Gee...that makes me feel real special. Or worse, you would prefer that I just lie there and not participate at all. Why don't you just get a blow-up doll and be done with it?

Not that your skills (or lack thereof) in the bedroom are anything to write home about, but something is better than nothing. I have tried to gently talk about things I like and don't like but you can't handle criticism of any kind and immediately get defensive. If you are going to get an attitude when I try and tell you how to give me a massage (you need to use BOTH hands!) I can't begin to imagine how you would overreact if I try and guide you on how to make love. I don't know if your lack of skill/enthusiasm is due to your excessive weight or other medical conditions but I am at my wits end. I'm about to buy stock in Duracell because I am buying batteries for my vibrator every other week!!!
I used to think that having an affair was the worst thing a married person could do, now I understand why people cheat. I am so starved for affection and intimacy it's not even funny. Right now I could name at least half a dozen men who would LOVE to be with me, if you aren't careful I just may accept one of the many propositions I have gotten lately.

The only thing that is keeping me around is our financial situation, but if things continue on their current path I will leave anyway. If that means we lose the house and I end up bankrupt in a studio apartment then that is what I will do. I am tired of feeling undesired and unloved by my own husband. I'm still relatively young, I don't want to live the rest of my life this way. I'm a passionate person and I'm tired of suppressing my feelings because my husband's libido has done a disappearing act. Work with me on this please...or I may very well end up "working" with someone else!!!

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Confessions # 2961

I am a married woman in love with a married man at work….and he doesn’t even know it…

Confessions # 2962

I fell in love with you because of your openess to my wild sex desires. I felt we "matched". Now, after almost 3 years of marriage and two kids, I wonder how will I keep my interest in you... Conservative, NO "new things", new experiences, positions, place to make love: only this way, in the bedroom, naked and not using any of my toys. You never bought a single toy or sexy briefs. Twice a month is NOT enough. Waking me up during the night is PERMITTED, REQUESTED and DESIRED. Why is the world upside down between us? I AM the lady and YOU are the one not interested in sex...

Confessions # 2963

Remember when I told you I loved you, I lied. Remember when I said I was happy to have ALL those kids, I lied. I can't stand you. I wish you would realize that we are done and stop bugging me. I was young, I had no where else to go. I kept myself in this fantasy land where I thought if I told myself enough that I was happy that it would come true and it didn't. You suck the life out of me. Oh and remember how I told you that I didn't sleep with my ex-boyfriend, yeah I lied...6 times.

Confessions # 2964

You are the most selfless lover I have ever had. You have taken the time to get me to relax, let me feel comfortable, tell me how beautiful you find me, how sexy I am to you. I honestly didn't think that I could have an orgasm from oral sex before you. Thank you , my love.

Confessions # 2965

some times I can not stand how sassy you are! you are so selfish I cant stand to look at you! I dont know what I was thinking when I married you! I want out so bad but I dont have the guts to do it! I wish you would figure out how I feel and leave on your own!

Confessions # 2967

Oh where, Oh where do I begin? I hate you for not taking up for me when your brother jumped down my throat. What kind of man does not take up for his wife when another man threatens her? Brother or not. I despise your family. They think they are so PERFECT! HA! You think you're perfect! Sometimes I wonder why I stay. I stay because I can't leave. And that makes me sad. I stay because I chose to have a family instead of a career. I often wonder what my life would be without you. If I had never married you to get out of the house and a bad situation.

And why does everything always have to be my fault? Why can't you do any yard work? Yes you work your 40 hrs a week. I work mine too. You do NOTHING around the house except complain about not having home cooked meals every night. I did not marry you to be your slave, cook, housekeeper or personal assistant. I do those things because I WANT to not because I HAVE too. And all those home improvement chores you started and didn't finish? I just want to hurl! You only did it because the floor was rotting away. My dad doesn't even like you. He puts up with your low life because of me. And after your brother did what he done to me he has no respect for you or your family at all now.

Deep down I know you're in love with her. I can see it in your eyes. The comments you make. The way you talk to her. Try to make jokes or make her laugh. That breaks my heart! She probably thinks you're awesome only because she doesn't what kind of man you really are. Porn addict. closet drinker. You would die of shame if everyone really knew!

You are not even a great dad. When is the last time you spent any time with our kids? I mean quality time? Have you ever thought about things they might want to do? They only go with you on your "hobby trips" is to be with you. They don't care about your hobbies! PLEASE WAKE up and look around you! You are killing our marriage and family! Why can't you see?????

Confessions # 2968


I cheated on him 5 times, and can't count the ones where it's been online. Having sexual conversation with the man I loved since I was 18. He cheats on his girlfriend too, but we don't feel guilty about it...we just want sex.
I wish I could leave this house...even though my son loves it. We could be so happy just the two of us.

If only I could manage to save some money...or win some

Confessions # 2969

Saturday I tried to get some love from you and all I got was shot down. I went out and met someone who has made me feel alive in the past all I wanted to do was screw right there. I gave him a ride home and we were screwing around in the truck so I came home. I thought about him all night and went over sunday morning and screwed him on the couch. And it was so good I wanna do him again.

Confessions # 2970

I'm just like every other girl,
Who's ever wanted to be held by someone else-
And I'm just like every story,
Hoping for a love-filled ending-

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Confession #161

You are a better father than I ever hoped.

Confession #162

I hate that every time you come from work you leave your keys where every you first sit your ass down. I even put a key hanger by the front door so there would be no need to search the house 50 times over and finally find your keys in the bathroom next to the toilet. Yes, most of the time I know where your keys are, but I figure at the least I can laugh to myself watching you search for them and you are late for work every morning. Is it really that hard....Come on. And when you lost my keys and made me hours late for work looking and finally finding them BEHIND our entertainment center, I really wanted to hurt you when you came home and you didn't even care. Thanks.

Confession #163

I am not your personal errand girl. Just because I am off for the summer does not mean that my new job is to run to the bank, bring you lunch, get the oil changed on both cars, do the grocery shopping, and do all of my usual chores. I'm on vacation. If you wanted two months off, you should have gotten a degree in teaching. I'm on vacation, buddy-leave me the hell alone.

Confession #164

If you touch my ass again while I am loading the dishwasher, I will deck you. Seriously. If you want to get some, quit groping and grab and dish and put it away-not that you know which cabinet the dishes belong in. You'd get a lot farther in the bedroom if you gave a little more in the rest of the house, you lazy ass.

Confession #165

You proposed because I was pregnant. I accepted because I was pregnant. Our child will be 18 soon, and I am SO OUT OF HERE!!

Confession #166

I did not get a job to get insurance. I got it to save money so I can leave you. You didn't appreciate me when I stayed at home with the kids, you don't appreciate me now that I'm working. Maybe you'll appreciate me when I'm gone.

Confession #167

When I asked you to dress our baby last winter, and you came downstairs dressed in warm socks, boots, long underwear, heavy jeans, two shirts and a parka, and handed me our son in a short sleeve cotton onesie I wanted to hit you and ask "WTF are you STUPID?"

Confession #168

Much as I love sex with you, it's better with the lights off because if
I'm pretending you're someone else, I can also pretend I'm looking into
his eyes.

Confession #169

I really loved it when you used to work out of town. I could go and do whatever I wanted to, whenever I wanted to without checking with the "head office", without putting up with your pissing and moaning. I could tolerate it when you started working intown, enjoying at least the daytime to myself, but now that you are home all the time, I am about to lose my mind. The only time I have for ME is the 30 minute drive to and from work. I am really sorry you hurt your back, but I am REALLY sick of hearing the whole damn scenario for the 5,000th time, complete with all the details of how much pain you are in.You act like no one in the world has ever experienced your pain--hell, you are zoned out on morphine so much of time, it's a wonder you know what pain is. And wash a dish? Pick up your dirty socks? That would cut into your free time, wouldn't it? And don't think that that I mind that the medicine has given you ED---It is a welcome excuse for me not to have to make it with a slob like you. It's been 34 years of torture pretending that you turn me on. I should get an Oscar for the acting job I have given. You never have known that you don't do it for me!

Confession #170

We are in love. Deeply, madly, painfully. Our souls are one in the
same. When we are in different physical locations, our souls are
still united and we are together. We get it.

We will never be together. Ever. Why? Because I married you. I love
you. I always have and always will. The love I have for you is
secure and it is comfortable. It is easy. You are an amazing father
to our son and the kind of husband that women wish for.

You are just not him. I never knew that the mad passionate love that
the movies extol existed. He has become apart of our family. He is
the best friend to my brothers and a son my parents have adopted as
one of their own. He is in our lives daily. I love him, I love him,
I love him.

I love you too. Just differently. I will be with you forever. I will
never leave you and I will never physically betray you. I will fight
my heart and mind and keep you in the forefront and not him. You
deserve the promises I made to you on our wedding day and you will
get them. I wish I could tell you every now and then when you ask me
what's wrong that my heart is hurting and it's fighting for you.

Every holiday, birthday, family vacation, celebration, I wish I
could tell you that I will be fully enjoying our family. Me, you, and
our son. I know that I will be looking across the room at him and his
girlfriend and he will meet my eyes and something unspoken will pass
between us. It will always be there.

He has my soul and you have my heart. I love you and I am committed
to you. You are the hero in my life. He never will be. As much as I
hate that, I find comfort in you.

I love you.

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Confession #151

hey, look, you cheated on me when we were dating. Do I forgive you, 4 years later? No. Did I forget? No. Do I hate you for it? Yes. Do I wonder why I married you? Yes. And then the answer strikes me. I married you because it's what people expected. However, if you cheat on me again, I will cut your penis off. fucker.

Confession #152

Yes, they really are making fun of you because of what you chose to say or do.

Confession #153

When I tell you yelling at a two year old doesn't work why do you insist upon an hour long explanation why? And then still not believe me? I am with these kids all day long every day and you are hardly here. You overreact. You think the kids should act like your coworkers. THEY ARE KIDS. THEY ACT LIKE KIDS! Don't treat them like they are doing it just to piss you off.

Confession #154

When you tweek my nipples for 3 seconds flat as if you're adjusting the
burner on your manly gas grill, do NOT ask me if I'm ready yet. I will
always respond, "not if you want it wet!" It's offensive that you spend
more effort on working up a good bowel movement than you do on foreplay

Confession #155

Your friends not coming around anymore has nothing to do with me like you say. Most all of them still stop by to chat when you're not home. They don't like how you treat them. And by the way, you're losing me friends and embarrassing me.

Confession #156

Yes, you have a job. Get over it. Everyone has to work. Either change careers or stop whining and complaining. Guess what? Everyone you're complaining to just came from work too!

Confession #157

During the last "Vomiting vacation", you cleaned up all the vomit in the bedroom while I comforted the child. That meant a alot to me. It really did.

Confession #158

I hate the fact that you're a drunk, , you spend your money on booze and I have to pay the bills. I hate having to force you to pay the bills.

We cant rely on your mommy forever you know. What are you going to do when she dies?
I hate that you lie to me and say you get our son up at 7:30 am when I know you don't get him up til about 9 ( geeze I wonder why he won't go to bed at night!) and I can't do anything about it because I am at work by that time. Why because I work at a really sucky job that I hate because you are to lazy and irresponsible to get a real job ( and keep it) and take care of your family.
Why do I pay most of the bills. Didn't you brag about how your wife would never work how you want your wife to stay home and take care of the kids and have dinner on the table as soon as you walk through the door ( yes that was me laughing )
Why do you think waving your member in my face is a turn on ( eww) and that asking me to look is the way to initiate sex? Then you just lay there. What you think your so wonderful that you don't even have to move and I am turned on?
Why am I with you again.


Confession #159

You smashed my nose in a drunken rage. You scared the shit out of me and
your precious, innocent daughter.

You have NO fucking idea how lucky you are to not be in jail right now. You
would be if I didn't need your money.

Welcome to life in the backseat, jackass. Life is never going to be the
same.


Confession #160

You're everything I want,
You're everything I need...
I want you to be my life consuming passion.
Everything my heart desires
I find it all in you, you're my true one and only.
Never let go of me for noone will love you as I do.

A Life in the Days

Some of you may remember a post that was up about a year ago for a photo project.

The concept is deceptively simple. A group of women take a photo every day. It can be of whatever strikes them as important...or everyday about their lives. It can be houses. It can be family. Food, Pets, Gardens, Workplaces, Friends, streets of their towns, or the things they see on vacations.

This is harder than it sounds, taking a picture everyday. At first I had to remember to put my camera BACK in my bag every time I uploaded photos. Some nights I, like some other women in the group, would end up with one hastily taken photo at bedtime since my day had gotten away from me.

As the first year of the project winds down, I can not express how important this documentation of my year has become for me. Beyond that, the group of women whom know only through their photos has become an important part of my life. I look forward to their pictures - to knowing how they are and what they are feeling. I love seeing the entirety of what they see.

While there can be no doubt that this is art, there is nothing delicate about this project. I would argue that it is the Feminine in its highest, most pure form. This is Women. Parenting. Mothering. Being Lovers and Friends and Daughters and Sisters. There are terrifying photos in this collection. Photos in which souls are laid bare before the camera. Nothing glamorous or hidden. There are incredibly tender photos of children or pets or things and places we love. There are hysterically funny pictures and there are desperately sad photos.

If you have not looked at this project, I invite you to do so. You will see that the pictures are arranged in chronological order - and if you like, you can go down and find individuals names where their pictures are tagged as a group.

Sarah, the founder of the project, is recruiting for another year of Envisage 365.
You can get in touch with her to express interest in participating at this email by August 20th:

submitenvisage@gmail.com

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Confession #2951

When will I ever learn that there is no satisfaction to be had in engaging with you? If I try to get you to see that you have been unfair to me...if I try to shame you, It whips back on me. It angers me that it has taken me 20 years to figure this out.

Confession #2952

I am falling in love with someone else. He's smart and funny and thinks I'm amazing. He has drive and ambition and interests that go beyond World of Warcraft. Although this is all very new, I'm already thinking about how to get out of this sham of a marriage so I can be with him when the time is right. And I'm not feeling the least bit guilty about it. I deserve to be cherished and loved.

Confession #2953

I hate that you are so quick to get angry, Im still scared of you from the last major outburst that you had 2 years ago. I know you know this and use it in your favor every now and then. Last night you called me a fat pig. Thats rich coming from someone who has more stretch marks than I do, and you havent had a kid. When I say that you should be treating me with respect, its not because I've been brainwashed by the book on relationships that im reading. Its because Im your partner, the mother of your child, your "soul mate" as you once called me and someone who deserves it! THATS WHY you useless prick!


Confession #2954

Well, I guess this is more of a cry for advice from everyone. I have been dating a guy for the past 8 months. This man is great in holding me, making me feel safe, letting me know I am loved, and just being a great “teddy bear”. Yet he cant keep a job, he is lazy and sleeps in all day, watches movies or plays video games. I love this man sooooooo much! Yet I have cheated on him several times. Simply cause he isn’t very good in bed, he doesn’t shower regularly or brush his teeth. When we make love I wanna be able to kiss him passionately and smell his soft skin, but I cant. My mother tells me I should kick him out, but if I do I am scared he will take his own life. I am a single mother who receives no help from the father. Which means I am supporting all 3 of us, with the little bit of money I make. I have never been with anyone who holds me the way he does. It is as if his arms are magic. I feel as if he counts on me too much because I am his ride or die chick. Everyday is for him and my child. I only do what I do to make sure they are happy and taken care of. He doesn’t even get along with my child very well, which makes things a little bit harder. I sometimes feel like I need a break from relationships, considering I have been in one since I was 13 and am now 25. What should I do? I have other offers from some good men who have jobs and the things a man should have. But I don’t know if they are worth leaving those magic arms. HELP!

Confession #2955

I wish I could read your freaking mind. Then I would know whether or not you really want to marry me, or if you act so lackluster and indifferent because you really don't want to go through with it, despite saying differently. It's not like there's some big wedding to plan. I have no family, and you have only two sisters, so a simple beach wedding and dinner at a nice restaurant afterwards is all we have planned. We have the rings and marriage license, but you still act so damned indifferent. I'm not asking for a big dress, fancy wedding & reception, or even a damned cake. You don't care what date I set, what we will wear, where it will be, or anything else. Put your fucking two cents in, please, so I'll know that you actually give a shit.

Confession #2956

I missed you terribly when you were away on business.

Confession #2957

To my m-i-l
My little girl will NOT be 6 feet tall. Yes she is tall now for her age, not by much. I've told you that when I was a little girl I was very tall, taller than everyone else until I was 12, then everyone caught up to me and I've been almost the same height since then, 5'4. Everyone in my family grows like this. When I told you this you actually questioned me by saying in a really wrong tone that my daughter takes after you, not me.
I've told you that but you insist that she will be "6 feet tall" because you spoke to someone you work with that had a tall toddler and she ended up nearly 6 feet....ugh.....we're not even related to this person...why would my daughter be like them....I just ignored you and said uh huh whatever.. Dont ever talk to me about my daughters height again.
Again and again I keep hearing how much she is exactly like all of you in every way and not even related to me, Im her mother, I gave birth to her. She DOES take after me. I can clearly look at her and see things from my family, the way her face is shaped, the way her body is shaped, movements she has, she really reminds me of my dad. Of course you keep shooting me down when I suggest that. My daughter cant even do the simpliest things without being compared to one of you. She wanted the outfit her doll was wearing changed, I helped her with it. Before I could put the other outfit on the doll, you see that the doll was unclothed and said, oh she takes after auntie so and so, auntie so and so used to love to take her does clothes off. UGH, no-I took the dolls clothes off. JUST STOP IT.
And you wonder why I dont really want to be around you anymore, you treat me with no respect. I DONT EVEN HAVE A CHOICE WHERE I SPEND ANY FUCKING HOLIDAY, ITS AUTOMATICALLY ASUMED THAT BECAUSE MY FAMILY IS NOT AROUND WE SPEND EVERY HOLIDAY WITH YOU. After you ever stopped to think that maybe I would like to have one fucking holiday without you. OH, of course not, you people are the fucking kennedy's, why would'nt every single person in your realm not want to be with you every second of every fucking day......IM TIRED OF YOU DICTATING MY FAMILYS LIFE....my own husband puts you all above me time and time again. I cant even begin to tell you how far down on the food chain I am in his life, you all are on top. And you dont treat me with any respect. My s-i-l had the nerve to tell me to my face that none of you like me, if it werent for my daughter, none of you would ever want to see me again. When I told my husband that his sister said that to me, he defended her and said I must had misunderstood, she would never say that. Im so fed up, I mean nothing to him. I want to take my daughter and move far away and never see any of you again.
I can just feel how things will be in years to come, me and my daughter against all of you. Me and her will win.

Confession #2958

I am secretly tickled to death that you have been asked to be in a movie.

Confession #2959

Remember years ago when you came home with a broken nose? You told me you were telling gay jokes to the trainer at the gym and she punched you. Now you know and I know that's not the whole truth. You were probably running your mouth not knowing when to shut up, annoying the hell out of her with your stupid babbling, and she finally had enough and just punched you so you would stop talking. Instead of learning a valuable lesson, you began your quest for getting her fired, only to fail. If only you knew how annoying your family and friends find you.


Confession #2960

You are an incredible ass. Having nagged you for 6 weeks to follow up after your vasectomy, I stupidly assumed you'd take care of the second sample on your own, like a big boy who doesn't need his mama telling him what to do. Like a man who protects the best interests of his woman as well as his own. Instead we've been having unprotected sex without knowing for sure that the surgery "took". This is NOT okay. This is FAR from okay. Yes, the probability of an unplanned pregnancy is low, but it's not zero. What kills me is that you didn't bother to tell me that you hadn't gotten around to taking care of business. I'm glad to know that my health, my future, my finances, my happiness, my peace of mind, and my trust in you are less important than surfing eBay for toy parts and your other projects. I haven't decided if this is a deal breaker yet, but I do know that you're "going solo" until you take care of this.

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Confession #2941

We're about to start living together, and I find myself feeling more and more scared everyday. You've been on your own since your divorce 15 years ago. You are so very set in your ways. For 15 years, you've just piled up whatever you want where ever you want. I'm overwhelmed by how much junk is piled in every room, every closet, and every cabinet. There is no room for my stuff in your house, and you're making no effort whatsoever to make room. But you'll let me do it, and have told me repeatedly that you want me to do it. However, when I do, you piss and moan the whole time. I feel screwed either way. Surely when we get through the transition, things will be better. But I'm not sure. And that scares me.

You also seem to have lost much of your interest in sex since we made the decision to live together. What's up with that? The way I look and dress hasn't changed; I still flirt with you. But you don't flirt back and sex has dwindled. That also scares me.

And per your request, I was at your house yesterday cleaning out a bedroom (which you wanted me to do). When you got home, you were in one the worst moods I've seen you in during the 2 years we've been together. Was it because you had to work late? Was it because I was there when you got home (as planned)? You blamed it on work, but I'm not sure. Even if it was work-related, are you always going to take out your bad work days on me? I know there are a lot of them, so that, too, scares me.

Yet when I left this morning, you were so sweet and loving. Very affectionate. Sincere "I love you"s. Back to your old self. The man I love. And the sex last night was great. But I'm scared.

Confession #2942

I have tried to tell you numerous times even before you were charged that things weren’t working out. I thought I was over it until the 1 year anniversary and realized I couldn’t live with things the way they are and since the kids are gone, life is too short not to be happy. Separated, and I, for the first time felt like I didn’t have to walk on eggshells, except you kept hounding me to death. I fell in love with a man who made me remember what life was supposed to be. And he with me. But, for the sake of our child’s wedding and the fear that the day would be ruined I told you to come home…to stop you from being an idiot. Now it’ll be so much harder because you are trying WAY too hard to be someone you’re not…the drinking started again like I knew it would…I need to move on. Am afraid now that the kids will all think it is me who is the bitch, not the realization that we haven’t had a relationship in years…..

Confession #2943

Have you ever bought a flat of annuals and all of the plants do well except for one? It has the same water, soil, sunlight, and care as all of the others but for no particular reason it just fails to thrive? This morning I felt like the weak pansy in the pack. For so long I've masked a feeling of desperation by staying busy. I went to college, traveled, and took up new hobbies. When things got dull, I changed jobs, changed boyfriends, took up home improvement tasks, and planned vacations but lately I just feel so... empty. Isolated. I find myself wasting time by rereading novels I've read before, playing solitaire at work, sabotaging my current relationship, and watching reality tv and hate myself for wasting this life. Even when I do the things that used to make me happy, I find myself unhappy with the results. It sounds like I'm depressed, but I don't know what I'm depressed about. I still have a job, a nice boyfriend, a nice home, can afford to travel, and am fortunate in many regards.

Ladies of TWC, please tell me what to do.

Confession #2944

I am sorry that I am obese. I wouldn't want to have sex with me either. You are a good man for encouraging me to be healthy. You are a good man for loving me even though I am angry with myself and sad at how my life has turned out. I want to lose weight. I want to be healthy. I'm just so afraid that I can't do it.

Confession #2945

I hate you. I want to leave you. I am much happier when you are gone, why can’t you get that? Why do you have to be so dense? I guess I need to tell you flat out, “I have a lawyer; you might want to get one too. Get out off the house now, locks will be changed as soon as you leave…

Confession #2946

I know this sounds stupid and I know you work hard for your money, why did you get to have your clam plate this weekend, but you left me with no money to be on vacation with the kids for the week? We are late on the bills, I stay with my parents on vacation to save money and let the kids have a good summer and you get to blow the money. I work, too. Maybe I wanted a clamroll, too. Asshole.

Confession #2947

We have a beautiful house, you’re an excellent provider, and you’re the best father to our children. What’s our problem? Our problem is that you don’t know how to love me. Being intimate with you only several times a year is not enough for me. You don’t tell me you love me. I want more from the man that I love. Seeing you play with our children and work hard so that our family has everything we need only makes me love you more -- but you won’t love me back. Every night you crawl in bed and fall asleep. I crawl in bed and wonder why loving me never crosses your mind. I buy sexy things to wear; I make myself smell good, so why don’t you want me? I beg you to get some help and you don’t. You ignore the problem. After eight years, I’m not in love with you anymore. I love you, but I’m not in love with you. Maybe I’m asking too much. It’s a shame because we could’ve had the perfect life.

After I lay awake in anger over the problem, I fall asleep and dream about my old boyfriend. He knew exactly how to love me, and we had the best sex. I see his face every night, but I can’t help it. You can’t control your dreams. You did this. It’s your fault. I always hear that sex isn’t the most important thing in a marriage, but it's so important. I need you to show me you love me.

Confession #2948

I want to move closer to home.

Not because I like it there, but because I miss being a part of everything. I miss just being able to go and see my brother or sisters and nieces and nephews whenever I want to. I miss my folks, and my aunts and uncles who live nearby. I miss having impromptu BBQs. I know in the past I told you I'd rather live closer to your family, but that was when things were toxic in mine. Things have improved drastically and I want to be a part of my family again. I feel so stuck and lonely. I have some friends, sure, but they're involved with their own lives (and many of them have their families around them).

I wouldn't want to live any closer than maybe an hour or an hour and a half's drive away. Just close enough to be able to go there and be around people. Close enough that our daughter could play with her cousins now and again.

I know we can't move closer. I know there are no jobs around there for you. I know you hate the country. I know we're stuck up here for awhile. It's not that you wouldn't move if we could, if it would make sense to. I just needed to say it; to admit that's part of why I've been so miserable lately. I grew up with a ton of family around me, and now I've got none around. Glad we're going to see them in a couple of weeks. Maybe that will help ease my loneliness. You're a super husband, but you can't give me everything.

Confession #2949

Would it have been possible to not start screaming at me when I walked in from my massage? I went because of my insomnia with the idea that it would help me sleep. Having you jump on my ass for something small and inconsequential was just mean - like you wanted to strip me of my relaxation. And this is one more reason I keep looking for an apartment.

Confession #2950

It is amazing that you are so good at patting yourself on the back. You actually bragged to my friends that you cleaned the bathroom. Yes, the sink and the countertop looked nice, but what about the shower, bathtub, floor and toilet? I wish cleaning was that easy.

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Confession #2931

On the day we were married in Niagara Falls, you held an umbrella over me while I took pictures of the edge of the waterfall. It wasn't until the thunder boomed that I realized that there was a thunderstorm on top of the mist coming from the falls... you stood there, getting completely soaked, keeping myself and the camera dry and didn't say a word because you know how much I love taking pictures and this was my last chance before we left and I would have stopped if I knew you were getting wet.... thank you my love, for being extraordinary on that day and every other day.

Confession #2932

I filed for divorce. You know it and even had to sign papers that you are aware of it. So, why are you acting like it isn’t happening? You have suddenly decided that you are going to be a super dad and an amazing husband. Sorry honey, after six years, I just don’t believe you are capable. Sure you’ll do well for a week or two or maybe even a month, but you’ll go right back to your drinking. This time, I am TRULY done. The only reason that I am not pointing this out to you is that your denial makes the divorce process easier. Plus, it is nice to actually get help with the kids.

Confession #2933

I don't understand why I am not enough for you, why you need to watch
porn. You say you are bisexual and you're definitely not gay; I have
no problem with homosexuality or bisexuality but I am terrified that
one day you will wake up and realize you need to be with a man. And
that will kill me. We have great, regular sex. Can't you get rid of
the porn and show me that I am enough to fulfill you? You say that you
should be allowed to embrace your sexuality and that it hurts you that
I can't love that part of you, but you don't seem to understand that I
feel invisible in our relationship when I have to acknowledge that you
watch porn and masturbate. It reinforces all my fear and insecurity.
You talk and talk about how this has no bearing on how you feel about
me, you love me, you want to be with me. But you won't put that into
action by doing this one thing that I ask of you, by giving up
pornography. It is a horrible, nagging feeling. The rest of our
marriage is so wonderful; I hate that this cloud hangs over us. I
worry it will be our undoing.

Confession #2934

When you try to handle something on your own, like a job application
or renewing your mother's Green Card, the number of questions you ask
me makes me wonder: how on earth do you get anything done at work? DO
you get anything done at work?

Confession #2935

We committed ourselves to one another a long time ago...18 years. You are my soulmate and I know that you feel the same way about me. Until death do us part baby.

Confession #2936

All I want to do is sell this house and get out of here before you blow it for me. I am afraid you are going to have another episode or self implode, and I will be here with the kids. Moving closer to my family will help me to feel safe, soooooo lets just price the house right, not like you have a chalet, and get me the fuck out of here.
thank you

Confession #2937

I am so proud of you for taking a chance and going back to school. Yes, I know you won't have much free time or spare cash for a while, but we're keeping our eye on a better life. You're daring to think that life is more than slaving away at a soul-sucking job in return for a lousy pay-check. I see how tired you are after working in the morning, studying in the afternoon, and then going to school at night, and then notice that you washed the dishes and swept the floor before you left. You're awesome. Totally a "keeper". Good luck, sweetie. I'll be there when you need me.

Confession #2938

I love you very much, you are the father of my child, and I would love to be with you for the rest of my life. However I need you to decide what you want, and I mean what you really really want. Not what you think you have to do, not what other people think you should do, but what will make you happy. If that means being a family and doing the things that familys do then great, that would make me beyond happy. If that means spending all your time with your friends or at the gym then so be it, I can handle that too.
You also need to learn how to express yourself. How do you think it makes me feel when I can see the wheels turning and you having to work just to tell me I look nice? Or the holidays I have to buy my own gift or wait until the day has passed to get it? Being away for 4 weeks and you not saying once that you missed me without provocation? Having you mumble something because you panic when I say I love you?
It doesn't feel good and honestly I am done, I knew that trying to make this work could turn out really badly for me, that you didn't feel as strongly as I did, and that I had to try anyway. I've believed that you can be the father and man I deserve but it's time for you to prove it.

Confession #2939

I hate my sister. I've never admitted it, even to myself, but I think I've hated her for a long time. We never got along growing up, but that's normal, right? Now we're grown....I married a black man (I'm white) against my family's wishes. Before I told any of them, I told my sister. I thought that if she could stand behind me, then maybe eventually the rest of them would come around. I told her that he was the first man I'd ever been in love with, the first man I'd ever loved period. She said, "You should do what you want to do. You should be happy." I'd have married him anyway, even if she had said she would never speak to me again. But just her saying that gave me some comfort because the rest of my family basically disowned me once I told them. My brother hasn't spoken to me in four years, and we were best friends for so long. Anyway, my sister got married about a year and a half later. She told another family member that I could attend her wedding, but I could not bring my husband or baby daughter with me. I was shocked, and really hurt. What makes her so fantastic that she is ashamed of me and my family? My husband is a great man - he works hard and is a great father - and I have the cutest daughter in the world. So I didn't bother to attend her wedding. If my family isn't good enough for her, then neither am I. Later I saw she had posted on her myspace page that the family had given her all of my great-grandmother's hand-written recipes and cookbooks (which they all knew my grandma had promised to give to me). She wrote about how touched she was to get them. I bet she was. Her and her ugly husband are fucking on the antique bed that my other grandmother gave me as well. I don't really care about all that - it's just stuff. It's just the principle behind it. But now my sister can't seem to get pregnant. She miscarried twins and she's been trying to get pregnant now for three years. As horrible as it sounds, I secretly smile every time I hear that another pregnancy test came up negative. I hope she never has a child. I do. Maybe it's karma for thinking that my family isn't good enough. Maybe a person like that doesn't have any business raising a child anyway. I hope her uterus rots and falls out.

Confession #2940

It hurts me to see you in such pain - your marriage is ending, and it hurts. But I will not let me be your distraction, nor your promise of something else. As much as I want to comfort you, you have to go through this hurt alone. When you are through the other side then we can make a life together. Freely.

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Confession #151

hey, look, you cheated on me when we were dating. Do I forgive you, 4 years later? No. Did I forget? No. Do I hate you for it? Yes. Do I wonder why I married you? Yes. And then the answer strikes me. I married you because it's what people expected. However, if you cheat on me again, I will cut your penis off. fucker.

Confession #152

Yes, they really are making fun of you because of what you chose to say or do.

Confession #153

When I tell you yelling at a two year old doesn't work why do you insist upon an hour long explanation why? And then still not believe me? I am with these kids all day long every day and you are hardly here. You overreact. You think the kids should act like your coworkers. THEY ARE KIDS. THEY ACT LIKE KIDS! Don't treat them like they are doing it just to piss you off.

Confession #154

When you tweek my nipples for 3 seconds flat as if you're adjusting the
burner on your manly gas grill, do NOT ask me if I'm ready yet. I will
always respond, "not if you want it wet!" It's offensive that you spend
more effort on working up a good bowel movement than you do on foreplay

Confession #155

Your friends not coming around anymore has nothing to do with me like you say. Most all of them still stop by to chat when you're not home. They don't like how you treat them. And by the way, you're losing me friends and embarrassing me.

Confession #156

Yes, you have a job. Get over it. Everyone has to work. Either change careers or stop whining and complaining. Guess what? Everyone you're complaining to just came from work too!

Confession #157

During the last "Vomiting vacation", you cleaned up all the vomit in the bedroom while I comforted the child. That meant a alot to me. It really did.

Confession #158

I hate the fact that you're a drunk, , you spend your money on booze and I have to pay the bills. I hate having to force you to pay the bills.

We cant rely on your mommy forever you know. What are you going to do when she dies?
I hate that you lie to me and say you get our son up at 7:30 am when I know you don't get him up til about 9 ( geeze I wonder why he won't go to bed at night!) and I can't do anything about it because I am at work by that time. Why because I work at a really sucky job that I hate because you are to lazy and irresponsible to get a real job ( and keep it) and take care of your family.
Why do I pay most of the bills. Didn't you brag about how your wife would never work how you want your wife to stay home and take care of the kids and have dinner on the table as soon as you walk through the door ( yes that was me laughing )
Why do you think waving your member in my face is a turn on ( eww) and that asking me to look is the way to initiate sex? Then you just lay there. What you think your so wonderful that you don't even have to move and I am turned on?
Why am I with you again.


Confession #159

You smashed my nose in a drunken rage. You scared the shit out of me and
your precious, innocent daughter.

You have NO fucking idea how lucky you are to not be in jail right now. You
would be if I didn't need your money.

Welcome to life in the backseat, jackass. Life is never going to be the
same.


Confession #160

You're everything I want,
You're everythign I need...
I want you to be my life consuming passion.
Everything my heart desires
I find it all in you, you're my true one and only.
Never let go of me for noone will love you as I do.

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Confession #141

I hate how you never clean up the bathroom sink. You leave hair all over it. You spit in it and don’t bother to rinse. Once, when you were being a jerk, I took your toothbrush and cheerfully cleaned the scum from the sink. Then I laughed on the inside when you told me how nice the sink looked. And I laughed even harder because you were brushing your teeth while you told me.

Confession #142

Dude, when you use the master bathroom with the door open without the fan on and your stench bubbles the paint on the walls? That's just disgusting. So when you emerge from your nightly shit and start to rub on me and breathe all heavy in my ear? I turn you down because you made our room reek and romance is the last thing on my mind, not because of the ailment du jour I pretend to have. A word or two of advice. Shut the door, turn on the fan, and Oust spray. You might get more action that way.

Confession #143

I wish you'd get some friends of your own so you didn't just sit around the house all weekend being bored.

Confession #144

It cracks me up how you've been on my ass for YEARS to work out and lose weight. Now that I have lost weight and work out almost every day? You don't. Does this mean I can start making noises about how much weight you've gained and how big your ass has gotten? Have some more ice cream, honey.

Confession #145

You asked me if I wanted to be a swinger four weeks after our son was born. what the fuck do you think the answer was going to be? bet you didn't think it was gonna be yes. why? because I think you watching me fuck someone else will break your heart as much as you have smashed mine in the past. besides, you are a lousy lover. always have been.


Confession #146

I am having an affair with someone that I meet. It is COMPLETELY about the sex. Quite honestly, I am getting a little bored with you and I needed a little something different. I am not planning on leaving you. I meet him during my lunch break for a quickie 2-3 times a week. He never complains and he doesn't whine when I don't call him or when I tell him I am too busy to meet him that day.

Confession #147

If I come home from work early because I don't feel good it's because I DON'T FEEL GOOD. It doesn't mean YOU get to take a three hour nap and I get to take care of the baby. It also doesn't mean you get to throw a temper trantrum because I fall asleep at 10:30 when I've been up since 5 a.m.

Confession #148

If I tell you I have started my period that morning, leave me alone. No, I don't want to have sex. No, I don't want to do ANYTHING, I just want to lie still and wait for the ibuprofen to work. Your best bet? Tip toe out and leave me alone with a book. Or offer me a candy bar.

Confession #149

Taking a shower once a week because you want to get laid does not make you attractive. Take a shower daily for more than three days and then we'll talk.

Confession #150

That time you took care of me after I had my wisdom teeth out? That was love. Changing the dressing in my mouth? True love. I can't tell you how much ground you made up in that week. I needed you and you came through. Plus you never complain about buying tampons. Yes, I'm noticing.

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Confession #2921

For the first few years of our marriage, I was desperately unhappy.

Last year, when I thought we were finally happy, you told me you didn't want to be married to me anymore. I felt like an idiot for not having seen this. And I felt betrayed, because you kept this secret for almost two years before you finally told me how you felt.

After 8 months of counseling, you decided we couldn't afford it anymore and we stopped going. You said things were better and you were leaning toward staying married.

On our anniversary, I asked you if you were happy or if you were still leaning toward divorce. You said you were still leaning toward divorce. That was a delightful slap in the face. But you still wanted to keep things going. You still wanted to try. I started hating you.

Today, I was downstairs and found your phone. I flipped it open and saw that, for the first time in all the years you've had a phone, it's password locked.

Seriously? What the fuck? I can't handle this anymore.

I'm terrified to be alone. I'm in the middle of studying for the bar exam. I have no job and no money. And all I can think of is getting a divorce.

Confession #2922

Thank you for making love to me in the backyard yesterday. You've known for quite some time that it was a fantasy of mine. There wasn't a cloud in the sky and the sun warmed our bodies. I laid on my back and looked you in the eye and fell deeper in love with you for it. Thank you for knowing what makes me happy and doing it so willingly.

Confession #2923

I bought you headphones for a reason. No jury will convict me when I
finally strangle you for playing the same three Boyz II Men songs over
and over again on You Tube.

Confession #2924

Yesterday was my birthday, I am 30 years old. I am the highschool student who was in forensics and band, never went to parties, and graduated from college with a 4.0 GPA. I have 2 children and have been married for 9 years. I have a good job, a good life, a good husband. I don't party, don't drink, don't smoke. For my birthday I wanted to do something I have never done before. I knew that before we were dating my husband had done it only once or twice, and I just wanted to be able to say I'd had the experience. That I had tried it. I only casually mentioned it to him, that I was just curious about what it felt like and he said he could probably get some if I really wanted to. That was the end of the conversation, I didn't really believe he could. And then he brought some home from work, I didn't even recognize what it was when he showed it to me, LOL. So last night, after the kids were in bed, we went out to the garage together. You should have seen us, neither one had a clue if we were doing it right. And then we had great sex and went to bed. I can't tell anyone, I would NEVER tell anyone, so I am sharing it anonymously with you internet. I am 30 years old and last night I smoked pot for the first time.

Confession #2925

I asked you to work on cleaning up the house while I was at work. In 5 hours, you washed 10 dishes. When I came home, in 2 hours I cleaned up all the kids toys, washed the other dishes you ignored, folded the laundry and put it away, vacuumed the house, and swept and mopped in the kitchen.

But I should be appreciative and impressed by everything you did, and it's not fair for me to be angry? Are you freaking kidding me?

Confession #2926

Today is one of the happiest days I've had in years. After several months of looking and negotiating, my brother bought me a house so that I can leave you. The closing is tomorrow. In 3 weeks and 3 days, I plan to take our daughter to my best friends house, then come home and tell you I want a divorce. I want to believe on some level that you know that it's coming. In reality though, you probably have no clue because you are truly that self involved.


Confession #2927

While reading TWC today I saw there is a Facebook page for it now. I so badly want to join, but I can't... it will start an argument. You always question everyone and everything I add to Facebook. You'd get unnecessarily angry. You'd wonder what I'm hiding from you and what I have to confess. I'd then probably lie just to try to ease your concerns and tell you that I have nothing to hide and I just read it for entertainment and end up removing myself from the group so that you didn't give me anymore shit about it. But you'll never know my real confession: you make me miserable and I want out of this marriage. TWC makes me feel like I'm not alone.

Confession #2928

I've been so unhappy for so long with you. You seem to just want to ignore it and pretend we can continue like this. We can't. Not without it destroying us both. I don't hate you. I kind of wish I did, then I could just be a bitch. I want a chance at happiness. We aren't happy and haven't been for a while. Living in some freakish limbo indefinitely is just going to make us hate each other. Soon as I am able to save up filing costs, I am filing for divorce. I know you know it is coming. I know you found the paper where I was figuring up what bills we had, what income we each have and who was going to get what. I know because it was not how I left it. Ironically after I found that paper left askew you tried to get more affectionate like that was going to fix things at this point. I've needed support. This was supposed to be a partnership, but it wasn't. Just constantly coming up and trying to rub my back or whatever is not gonna fix things. As a matter of fact most of the time I am fighting the urge to snap for you to get your hands off me and quit touching me.

Confession #2929


I know you love me. Will, I think so anyways...sometimes I am not sure. If you'd ever just look at me and tell me you love me for no reason at all (like, not because I say it first, or it is bedtime ), I'd know for sure...and then I wouldn't be so bitchy all the time

Confession #2930

If you had been willing to look at our issues together in the ten plus years I have asked, instead of waiting until I told you I was leaving and suddenly gaining insights about our interactions and relationship, you might not be sleeping in a separate bed and watching your wife establish her future life without you. It really is too little too late.

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Confession #2911

First you woke my body up, and then you moved your way into my heart. You are my beloved.

Confession #2912

I was completely cool with your dad throwing a "Man Shower" while I was doing my baby shower when I thought it was just going to be you and the guys hanging out by the river, fishing and drinking a few beers. After talking with your dad and hearing how he was planning on making it into another bachelor party and trying to get you wasted, I had my concerns. I even asked your father to please not ply you with booze b/c a.) it's my baby shower and I would like it to be a nice, family day to celebrate the upcoming birth of our son and b.) my mom was staying with us and I didn't want to have to apologize for my tanked husband. I talked to you and told my concerns about my baby shower becoming an excuse for a raging beer-fueled party and, very specifically, asked you to NOT get completely hammered but to def have some drinks and have a good time. I even told you that I don't mind if you're drunk but didn't want you to be excessively drunk.

Well, that didn't happen. After driving not only yourself home but 2 of our friends, you come stumbling and slurring into our house (with my mom there), take a shower and pass out at 7:30. I go to check on you and catch you puking over the side of the bed into a trash can. I also later find that you have puked all over the toilet in our master bath and it is really not fun to be bending over cleaning up somebody else's puke at 8 months pregnant in the middle of the night. I am so angry and disappointed with you. I asked you not to get shithoused and you did so any way. And, even though you're a 28-year-old man and should be able to resist peer-pressure at this point, I am annoyed as hell with your dad too b/c he blatantly disrespected my wishes and thinks it's hilarious that you got wasted. I realize that this is how your family is since both your mom and sister got drunk AT my actual baby shower but you're usually not like that b/c if you were there is no way we would be married. I was so embarrassed having to apologize to my mom for my drunken husband. I cannot believe you disrespected me like that. My trust and respect for you took a big nosedive. It was supposed to be a special day and now I will remember my baby shower like this. I love you and always will but I really, REALLY do not like you right now.


Confession #2913

Well, it's started. The ball is rolling. I am not sure that I can stop it or if I even want to.

My secret crush, who has kept me motivated and content in my mind for the last year and a half, well he feels the same way about me. We have "flirted" in the past, but I just figured it was me, b/c I was miserable in my marriage. I just found out this weekend and I have spent the day filled with anxiety and butterflies.

We didn't do anything, and we promised we wouldn't. We know that the grass just looks greener. We like our lives in general, where we live, who we know, what we do. We just happen to really, really like each other too. The bummer for me is that I feel like I am in a window of life in which there is really no option to leave you. I wouldn't leave FOR him anyway, but to even daydream about it brings me down b/c it just isn't an option.

If you knew who he was, you'd die. He is funny and charming and sexy and respectful. Lighthearted and upbeat.....all the things you THINK you are, but aren't.

My biggest dilemma is that while we said we wouldn't act on this, in my heart, I can't wait to. I don't know if I should schedule our next double date or run for my life. My only regret so far is that I didn't lean over and kiss him this weekend when I had the chance. I am terrified that our moment has passed. I both look forward to and dread the next time we are all together.

So dear husband......thanks for refusing counseling and for refusing to talk about us for the last 3 years. Thanks for constantly criticizing me and tearing me down. Thanks for making me want nothing to do with you. At least I don't have to feel guilty about what I am feeling right now, which is simply desired, just as I am.

Confession #2914

I can see it in your eyes every night that I don't have sex with you. I would love to have sex, if you can get your hand off you dick long enough for me. Sometimes I am afraid I won't live up to the expectations you may have because of your masturbation. Oh yeah, I have heard and seen you and let me tell you, you like it. I can tell. So where does that leave me. And before some one says "jump on and help him out" let me just say, it doesn't turn me on. This is the behavior that gets you into trouble, remember......

Confession #2915

I love you. Crazily so. And I know you love me. But where is your desire? I read and hear about these randy men and frigid wives. The stereotypes abound but we are the opposite. I want you. I desire physical affection from you. I want you to want me. I want you to be unable to keep your hands off me. But you are disinterested in sex. I can't understand it. Is it me? Is there something I am missing? No matter how many other ways you show your love, I will feel rejected and unloved without this aspect of our relationship. Physical affection is my love language.

Confession #2916

i'm not married but sometimes i wish i was despite the fact that it would be a huge mistake. you are a terrible man. your son barely knows you, and he's not even OURS. i had a miscarriage soon after you had a baby with her, and you left me in the hospital all day, by myself dying emotionally and physically. 7 1/2 years we've been together, and you have a fiance AND another girlfriend. i hate that i can't leave you alone. you come by just when i'm at the end of my rope, finally thinking to myself i can maybe be with someone else....and toss me into a whirlwind of emotions. you put my body thru such extacy and are gone again. i hate that you do this, but hate myself more for letting you because i think i need you, and i'm still too scared to sleep with someone else. i hate that i bring this pain on myself because i know when you leave you are going to one of those other bitches. we were together first. everything you have become and actually accomplished has been with me. i stick by you thru the low points and try to build you back up. i cry over you almost every day, and none of it matters to you because you have those 2 fawning all over you.

you're making some of the hugest mistakes of your life. even your friends want to be with me and they all hate how i cry for you. you think you're on top right now, but you always come crashing down, but will i be here this time when you "need" me? i wonder if i will find the strength to move on before you come crashing thru the door again, tellin me it's me you want.

the weekend of your wedding i will be getting seriously fucked up. i wonder if i will hear from you. AFTER your wedding, i wonder if i will be able to go on....i wish i could just let go...

Confession #2917

I cheated on you with my coworker when we were engaged. We had really hot sex, oftentimes at work. I felt guilty about all of this -- and then you hit me. More than once. And since then, fucking him in the break room was the best thing I ever did.

Confession #2918

Thanks for your sympathy, even if it bears a striking resemblance to the general apathy you have towards my life and the things I do. God forbid you ever ask me about my day and then sit through me actually telling you without interrupting or starting to do something else while I talk. That actually might mean caring about someone more than you do yourself, and we can't have that! I really appreciate your total lack of concern for my feelings and opinions and especially cherish how you personalize all of our disagreements and lash out at me if I don't agree with you. It's delightful being married to a 30 year old man who has the relationship skills of a teenage boy. I love how you can never compromise, how you emotionally black mail me, and in especially stressful times, threaten to not participate in important events in my life all to make me do what you want. Thank you so much for being a hypocritical Christian, who says he believes in Jesus but then refuses to live a life that bears any resemblance to that. I look forward to the day when your cruel and petulant behavior shames me and the profession that I have chosen and causes my congregation to doubt me and my pastoral abilities. I look forward to the day when our children start to avoid you and your volcanic mood swings and when they start to ask if you love beer more than them. I look forward to all of the arguments we will have in the future about money because you are a spoiled child who refuses to consider fiscal responsibility or stewardship because they really want to eat out more than once a week. I had no idea that marriage could be so delightfully frustrating and soul crushing, but I have only you to thank for that. If we make it past five years, I think that even your mother will be surprised that you didn't manage to sabotage our relationship before then. Maybe they'll create protestant saints just to commemorate the hellish years that I spent catering to you and your outrageously childish behavior.

Confession #2919

I just don't know what do with you anymore. You don't want to have a physical affair but you won't let go of me either. You know how I feel, you acknowledge that we belong together but you will not leave what you confess is a bad marriage. I applaud you for trying to make things right but how much longer can you put us both through this? I'll keep meeting you at our appointed time, our time together, to talk, to just be together. You have made it clear that I am a big part of your life and you want me around always. However, please understand how much it hurts to watch you with someone else. There will be a breaking point where I may have to walk away. I hope that it will not have to come to that. You know I am ready to leave him with or without you. I need you, I want you and I love you, just take my hand and come with me. That's all I ask of you.

Confession #2920

I want to thank you for being the person that makes me laugh my ass off daily.
I want to thank you for the endless cups of tea.
I want to thank you for knowing it's your hair that clogs the drain and being embarrassed about it.
I want to thank you for loving my daughter.
I want to thank you for wanting to hold my hand.
I want to thank you for your patience with my ex.
I want to thank you for your ability to throw my mother for a loop.
I want to thank you for pointing out when I'm being over the top.
I want to thank you for still loving me when I give you the finger for pointing out I'm being over the top.
I want to thank you for playing.
I want to thank you for giving me back a sense of wonder

I love you... meet you by the swings.