Saturday, July 29, 2006

True Wife Confessions 33 - The last cruxification

Confession #321

Why must you call to tell me that the power just went out & you were about to make dinner, well..... ok, looks like we are having pb&j to eat & why must I call the power company to report the outage. After all if you can call a boat dealership to get a boat loan, then why is it so hard for you to call the energy company and let then know that we have no power!!! pussy

Confession #322

I had an abortion, right before we got married... I could never ever tell you this and never ever will! I feel like shit that you don't know anything about this and I thank God we have a beautiful little one now!

Confession #323

Sometimes, when we are having sex. I hurry things along because there is dramah on the message board I post at. Yes, I am more interested in reading the dramah, than having a quickie with you. Tuna Cones and sybermommys are far more entertaining.

Confession #324

You have given me more than I could have ever imagined.
I still get butterflies when I see you. After 8 years, you still make me giddy like you did when we first started dating.
When I look at our children and I see you in them, it makes me love you that much more. I know that your childhood was hard and you didn't have your mother and father around much, but you never show any resentment and somehow you know how to do everything for your children that your parents didn't do for you. You are my strength and my comfort. I could spend the day wrapped up in your arms. I take you for granted so many times, but when I stop to think about it, I can't believe I have someone as amazing as you. I know I say it everyday, but I mean this more than I can express: I love you. Thank you for being you.

Confession #325

The only reason i'm still with you is because he
wouldn't leave her for me. I've played the naive
victim role to keep you here. I still don't love you
and I don't know if I ever will but you are a decent
father and I don't want to get a job. I know I suck.


Confession #326

When you were out of town 2 years ago cheating on me, I was sleeping with your best friend. I just give you a hard time because I don't want you to be hurt the way I was hurt the 3 times you cheated on me.

Confession #327

When we fight or you make me feel bad about myself, I secretly think about the married man I slept with for two years before I married you. He wouldn't leave his wife and kids (though he said in the beginning that he was going to), but we've messaged each other recently and he still thinks of me as 'the one that got away'. I wish you knew that someone else wants me so you'd treat me better

Confession #328

I got engaged to you when I found out I was pregnant. When I lost the baby
I should have taken it as a sign to change the direction of my life, but I
didn't. I married you anyway, because I didn't want everyone to think that
I was just marrying you because of the baby. I was. Now I'm miserable
being married to you, and spend my days googling ex-boyfriends and dreaming
of ways to leave you.

Confession #329

I did know that the ice tea in the fridge was yours and that you were saving it. I was just thirsty and it looked good.

Confession #330

I start fights at bedtime so that you won't try to have sex with me.

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

329, your post reminded me of this poem by William Carlos Williams:

This Is Just To Say

I have eaten
the plums
that were in
the icebox

and which
you were probably
saving
for breakfast

Forgive me
they were delicious
so sweet
and so cold

Anonymous said...

#323
You are a message board whore!Know there are thousands of you out there.:)

Anonymous said...

#324
That was just beautiful.It is so nice to read that others adore, and love their men as much as I do.After 18 years with the same man I know that LOVE CAN LAST!
Good for you!

Lori said...

#325,326,&327, How do you live with this stuff everyday? It has to be abolutely mentally exhausting the facade you put on. I would rather be single than to play that game. I know if my husband cheated on me, I COULD NEVER TRUST HIM AGAIN!

Anonymous said...

go Lori, it's your birthday....

Anonymous said...

#329, you made me laugh. I knew your confession reminded me of something, and I'm glad the first anonymous poster revealed to me what it was. I hope you're forgiven ;)

Anonymous said...

#329 If that is the worst thing you have to confess, you should be okay. Thanks for the giggle.

Anonymous said...

#324

After 10 years he still gives me butterflys too.

Anonymous said...

Would those be thin "butterflys" or fat "butterflys?"

Anonymous said...

#329 - heee. Guilty as charged.

Anonymous said...

Hey 10:36! I take it that you read the comments on post 32. LOL

wish he woulda left her said...

#325, I'm right there with you!! So, you're not the only one who sucks.

Anonymous said...

#329 - ROFL! I've done that too!

Amy said...

#325, I can totally relate and it eats away at me every day of my life.